so its not that i dont like working with people. i do. i like the interaction, i like getting help, i like the input and the education that comes iwth it. but i really dont like depending on other people to do my work. i was never great at group projects in school for that reason. i work on my own schedule, i get things done as i do them, and when im ready to do something, i like to be able to just do it. so when i have to wiat on my program manager to get me something, and he takes over four weeks to do it, it really bugs me. i spend two weeks making this website like forever ago, then wait for the UI spec, and then its completely out of my mind. he gives it to me today, and now they want it done as soon as possible, cause code complete was supposed to be the end of the week. yea, not gonna happen. not my fault though so i dont feel too too bad about it.

work is cool though. i like it. im pretty consistently busy these days, which is perfect. days fly by, weeks fly by, then weekends are fun. its really what a job should be. i enjoy what i do, im doing well at it, and theres very little stress and pressure involved. some people i know complain about their job, say they dont feel like theyre making a big enough impact on the world, that theyre overloaded, blah blah. i dont need a big impact, i dont care about changing the world, ya know? my ambitions arent that high. i mean if i end up in the situation, and im sure i will at some point in my microsoft lifetime, where i am working on an important commercial product with real visible financial impact, i will be trapped in solid product cycles, stress everywhere, constant changes ... it will be a blast. but till then ill stay in my cushy little position, work my 9-10 hours a day, and feel good about myself. and drink mountain dew. lots and lots of dew. i think im getting a dew gut hehe. shhh dont tell anyone.

two signs its december. first, the date at the top of this post says december 1st. second, i just saw the m&ms/santa commercial. he does exist. they do exist. man i love christmas m&ms. or just christmas altogether. i was going to buy lights and decorations, but im afraid ill blow out my fuse again. my guess is they didnt have big electric bulbs when this place was wired. but i think i will buy a wreath. i need some spirit. i love spirit. i will go shopping this weekend for fun knick knacks for gifts for people. then i will be spirited. what do you want? nothing? cool, ill get you one of those.